Some days I just want to give up. When the day is not going as I had planned or hoped; when my kids are fighting and the babies won't nap; when I have four loads of laundry to fold and four more to wash; when Buttercup has taken 90 minutes to complete three addition problems; when there is no dinner ready (again) and I only slept four hours the night before -- those days I just want to give up on homeschooling just to have a little more peace and sanity in the house. Well, as much peace and sanity as one can have with two infants.
Sometimes I wonder why I'm doing this at all. Homeschooling is really highlighting all my own personal character flaws that I'd much rather sweep under the rug than stare at in the mirror. It is hard to be with your kids 24/7 - at least if you're me. I fantasize about well-behaved children sitting in rows in a clean classroom, quietly working on assignments. That's what school is like in my mind.
Then I see something like this:
Oh come on! Just break my heart why don't ya?!
This is why I'm doing it all. It's so that my children will get to know the Lord that loves them, and hopefully love him back. I want Jesus to be central to my children's lives, and not someone reserved for Sunday morning.
Thank you, God, for these little reminders to stay the course.